1 00:00:04,688 --> 00:00:08,688 It's been seven hours and fifteen days 2 00:00:10,968 --> 00:00:14,447 Since you took your love away 3 00:00:14,448 --> 00:00:17,727 Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah 4 00:00:17,728 --> 00:00:21,728 I go out every night and sleep all day 5 00:00:24,728 --> 00:00:28,167 Since you took your love away 6 00:00:28,168 --> 00:00:31,927 Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah 7 00:00:31,928 --> 00:00:35,928 Since you've been gone I can do whatever I want 8 00:00:38,608 --> 00:00:41,567 I can see whomever I choose 9 00:00:41,568 --> 00:00:45,207 Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah 10 00:00:45,208 --> 00:00:49,208 I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant 11 00:00:51,728 --> 00:00:55,728 But nothing, I said nothing can take away these blues 12 00:00:58,088 --> 00:01:02,088 Cos nothing compares to you. 13 00:01:06,968 --> 00:01:10,968 Whoo! 14 00:01:15,848 --> 00:01:17,767 Seriously, Rae, that was class. 15 00:01:17,768 --> 00:01:20,127 Why can't you do the actual performance on Friday? 16 00:01:20,128 --> 00:01:23,807 I think I'd literally rather stick a jellyfish in my kecks 17 00:01:23,808 --> 00:01:25,647 than sing in front of an audience. 18 00:01:25,648 --> 00:01:29,648 Anyway, I can't take Chloe's part. Chloe's insisting on the lead vocal 19 00:01:30,048 --> 00:01:31,567 and she won't even turn up. 20 00:01:31,568 --> 00:01:35,407 She's a bitch. She's a total bitch. Everybody says it, not just me. 21 00:01:35,408 --> 00:01:39,408 Leave her alone. Maybe she's got stuff going on. Right, Rae? 22 00:01:40,208 --> 00:01:43,767 Dunno, Iz. Why isn't she here? 23 00:01:43,768 --> 00:01:46,207 OK, gang? Erm, I just got a call 24 00:01:46,208 --> 00:01:50,208 saying that Chloe isn't going to be able to make it for the performance. 25 00:01:50,648 --> 00:01:54,648 You're going to have to find a replacement for her. 26 00:01:57,368 --> 00:02:01,368 No. 27 00:02:04,466 --> 00:02:37,466 28 00:02:41,968 --> 00:02:43,447 'Dear diary, this was worse 29 00:02:43,448 --> 00:02:47,327 'than being repeatedly stung on the vagina by a jellyfish. 30 00:02:47,328 --> 00:02:51,328 'I was not doing that performance, not in front of that many people. 31 00:02:51,568 --> 00:02:54,047 'No way, no how. 32 00:02:54,048 --> 00:02:58,007 'Chloe has no consideration for others, including me. 33 00:02:58,008 --> 00:03:02,008 'The performing arts group were right. She is a bitch.' 34 00:03:03,088 --> 00:03:05,567 She's missing? 35 00:03:05,568 --> 00:03:06,647 W... 36 00:03:06,648 --> 00:03:10,007 Well, how long has she been gone? Two days. 37 00:03:10,008 --> 00:03:13,287 She left a note. 38 00:03:13,288 --> 00:03:16,847 Please don't lose any sleep over it, Rae. She does this all the time. 39 00:03:16,848 --> 00:03:18,647 I called the police the first time. 40 00:03:18,648 --> 00:03:21,047 She strolled in through the front door a few hours later 41 00:03:21,048 --> 00:03:25,048 as if nothing had happened. She's not responsible like you, Rae. 42 00:03:26,328 --> 00:03:28,887 OK, erm... 43 00:03:28,888 --> 00:03:32,888 Chloe's got some of the posters that we need for the concert. 44 00:03:33,008 --> 00:03:37,008 Is it all right if I just...? Yeah, course. You know where her room is. 45 00:03:42,168 --> 00:03:46,168 'Her dad was spot-on, this was typical of Chloe. 46 00:03:47,488 --> 00:03:50,487 'She was off doing God knows what God knows where 47 00:03:50,488 --> 00:03:54,488 'while the rest of us were left to pick up the pieces.' 48 00:04:06,328 --> 00:04:08,567 ' "Dear diary..." 49 00:04:08,568 --> 00:04:11,887 'Oh, my God, Chloe kept a diary?! 50 00:04:11,888 --> 00:04:15,888 'I'm not the sort of sneaky two-faced cow who would actually read it. 51 00:04:16,288 --> 00:04:19,527 I am better than that! 52 00:04:19,528 --> 00:04:23,528 'I am better than that...' 53 00:04:26,048 --> 00:04:30,048 'Friday the 5th of July 1996. It's here, finally it's here, 54 00:04:31,768 --> 00:04:33,487 'the last day of school. 55 00:04:33,488 --> 00:04:37,488 'No more stupid uniform, no more homework. 56 00:04:45,488 --> 00:04:49,488 'And I had one final assignment.' 57 00:04:53,048 --> 00:04:57,048 Hiya, sir. Hi, Chloe. All the girls have been talking about you. 58 00:04:59,568 --> 00:05:02,687 They want to know what your name is. Ah, it's Mr Carrisford. 59 00:05:02,688 --> 00:05:06,647 Yeah, well, we know that. What's your first name? 60 00:05:06,648 --> 00:05:10,648 It's top secret. 61 00:05:10,768 --> 00:05:14,687 So, are we going to get a chance to catch up now that school's over? 62 00:05:14,688 --> 00:05:18,688 What do you mean? Well, technically I'm not a student here any more. 63 00:05:18,848 --> 00:05:20,887 So we could... 64 00:05:20,888 --> 00:05:22,687 meet up... 65 00:05:22,688 --> 00:05:26,688 have a chat. 66 00:05:33,848 --> 00:05:37,848 One piece of advice for the future. Don't make promises you can't keep. 67 00:05:38,728 --> 00:05:42,728 I don't break promises. 68 00:05:43,928 --> 00:05:45,687 Chloe? 69 00:05:45,688 --> 00:05:47,807 It's Stephen. 70 00:05:47,808 --> 00:05:50,567 See you later, Ste. 71 00:05:50,568 --> 00:05:53,567 Found what you're looking for, love? 72 00:05:53,568 --> 00:05:56,487 I guess I'll just head off, then. 73 00:05:56,488 --> 00:05:58,927 'I don't know what was more surprising, 74 00:05:58,928 --> 00:06:02,928 'the fact that Chloe kept a diary or the fact that I was now stealing it.' 75 00:06:08,888 --> 00:06:12,888 Everyone, this is Chloe. Hiya. She's the girl I met at dance. Hiya. 76 00:06:14,248 --> 00:06:18,248 'Yeah, yeah, yeah. Where do I come in? 77 00:06:18,768 --> 00:06:21,567 'Ah, here we go.' 78 00:06:21,568 --> 00:06:25,568 Everyone, this is Rae. OK, she's amazing, she's funny, she's pretty. 79 00:06:27,008 --> 00:06:28,447 She can proper dance. 80 00:06:28,448 --> 00:06:32,007 And she could probably drink all of you boys under the table. 81 00:06:32,008 --> 00:06:35,487 Bollocks. Ooh, sounds like a challenge. 82 00:06:35,488 --> 00:06:37,727 Right, I'll get the shots in. OK. 83 00:06:37,728 --> 00:06:39,807 That's not what happened! 84 00:06:39,808 --> 00:06:43,808 That is total bollocks. She never said all that stuff about me! 85 00:06:44,408 --> 00:06:48,408 She's warped it to make herself feel good. 86 00:06:49,808 --> 00:06:53,808 Everyone, this is Rae. Y'all right? Hiya! All right? Want a drink? 87 00:06:54,008 --> 00:06:57,447 Cos Chop can get served. Er, no, it's all right. I don't drink. 88 00:06:57,448 --> 00:07:00,647 'See? I didn't even bloody drink back then. 89 00:07:00,648 --> 00:07:04,648 'This is total, undiluted, grade-A shit.' 90 00:07:08,608 --> 00:07:12,608 Oh, my God, guess who I seen today. "Saw". Who? Rae Earl. 91 00:07:14,328 --> 00:07:18,127 She's back from France. Mm. 92 00:07:18,128 --> 00:07:22,128 What? Jacob Radcliffe's dad says she's been ill. 93 00:07:22,648 --> 00:07:26,648 Mentally ill. It's no wonder, with a mother like that, though, is it? 94 00:07:27,048 --> 00:07:28,767 So, what do you mean? 95 00:07:28,768 --> 00:07:31,927 She's not been in France? I don't know where she's been. 96 00:07:31,928 --> 00:07:35,207 But I do know that she's had a breakdown, though. 97 00:07:35,208 --> 00:07:38,527 I once heard her mother tell Dr Entwistle to go and eff himself. 98 00:07:38,528 --> 00:07:40,527 You should stay away from them both, Chloe. 99 00:07:40,528 --> 00:07:43,327 The whole family. They're programmed differently. 100 00:07:43,328 --> 00:07:45,127 There you go. 101 00:07:45,128 --> 00:07:49,128 Is there nothing from the fry-up? No, there isn't. 102 00:07:49,328 --> 00:07:50,767 Dad's got loads. 103 00:07:50,768 --> 00:07:53,007 Oh, men have bigger appetites than women, Chloe, 104 00:07:53,008 --> 00:07:57,008 and big appetites need feeding. 105 00:08:15,848 --> 00:08:17,367 I didn't think you'd come. 106 00:08:17,368 --> 00:08:19,768 Thought you'd bottle it. Yeah, well, I'm not a bottler. 107 00:08:33,928 --> 00:08:36,408 'Hi, this is Stephen. Leave a message, I'll hit you back.' 108 00:08:39,208 --> 00:08:40,488 Come on, pick up! 109 00:08:41,928 --> 00:08:44,688 'Hi, this is Stephen. Leave a message, I'll hit you back.' 110 00:08:49,088 --> 00:08:51,287 Pick up! 111 00:08:51,288 --> 00:08:53,407 'Hi, this is Stephen. Leave a message, I'll hit you back.' 112 00:08:53,408 --> 00:08:55,127 Come on! 113 00:08:55,128 --> 00:08:58,487 Hiya. It's me. I... 114 00:08:58,488 --> 00:09:02,488 I know you told me not to call, but can you ring me back, please? 115 00:09:02,808 --> 00:09:05,128 We just really need to talk. 116 00:09:39,568 --> 00:09:42,127 Are you feeling all right? 117 00:09:42,128 --> 00:09:46,128 A bit better. 118 00:09:47,928 --> 00:09:50,727 Listen, Chloe... 119 00:09:50,728 --> 00:09:54,167 ..I wasn't in France this year. 120 00:09:54,168 --> 00:09:57,927 Where were you? 121 00:09:57,928 --> 00:10:01,327 I've been ill. 122 00:10:01,328 --> 00:10:04,367 I did something stupid. 123 00:10:04,368 --> 00:10:07,607 I hurt myself. 124 00:10:07,608 --> 00:10:11,608 Why would you do that? 125 00:10:11,888 --> 00:10:14,567 I will tell you. 126 00:10:14,568 --> 00:10:16,647 I just need time. 127 00:10:16,648 --> 00:10:19,247 Is that OK? 128 00:10:19,248 --> 00:10:22,127 Of course it is. 129 00:10:22,128 --> 00:10:26,128 I've got it! 130 00:10:27,208 --> 00:10:29,607 Hello? 131 00:10:29,608 --> 00:10:32,207 Yeah, well, then... 132 00:10:32,208 --> 00:10:35,287 What time? 133 00:10:35,288 --> 00:10:39,287 Right. Bye. 134 00:10:39,288 --> 00:10:42,607 Stephen. 135 00:10:42,608 --> 00:10:46,608 He wants me to go over. But I'm not leaving you on your own. 136 00:10:48,208 --> 00:10:52,208 No. Hey, don't be silly. You should go and talk to him. 137 00:10:56,088 --> 00:10:58,247 You sure? Yeah. 138 00:10:58,248 --> 00:11:01,447 I didn't say you could leave, Chloe. You just bloody left. 139 00:11:01,448 --> 00:11:05,448 Ohhh! That's not how it happened. 140 00:11:07,768 --> 00:11:11,527 'That's not how it happened. I don't... 141 00:11:11,528 --> 00:11:13,535 'Well, I don't remember it like that.' 142 00:11:15,042 --> 00:11:19,002 OK, we've got to pretend it's 7.30, yeah...? 143 00:11:19,704 --> 00:11:23,103 'Not only had she been lying about what happened in her diary, 144 00:11:23,104 --> 00:11:27,104 'Chloe still hadn't bloody shown up!' 145 00:11:53,976 --> 00:11:57,375 Rae. 146 00:11:57,376 --> 00:11:59,495 Rae, are you OK? No! 147 00:11:59,496 --> 00:12:03,495 No, I'm not. Mrs Coombes says that if I don't do this performance, 148 00:12:03,496 --> 00:12:05,855 I'm not going to get a mark, and I'm going to fail. 149 00:12:05,856 --> 00:12:08,495 I'm on a final warning as it is. 150 00:12:08,496 --> 00:12:10,095 I've got something that might help. 151 00:12:10,096 --> 00:12:13,415 Just take it to the show. 152 00:12:13,416 --> 00:12:16,095 We'll all bringing our parents. I think you'll feel much better 153 00:12:16,096 --> 00:12:19,895 about it if you've got someone there supporting you. 154 00:12:19,896 --> 00:12:23,215 Izzy. 155 00:12:23,216 --> 00:12:25,095 'Maybe Izzy was right. 156 00:12:25,096 --> 00:12:27,855 'If I had someone there to support me, 157 00:12:27,856 --> 00:12:29,936 'maybe I could get through it.' 158 00:12:32,936 --> 00:12:36,936 'Hang on.' 159 00:12:41,136 --> 00:12:45,135 'What the fuck?! 160 00:12:45,136 --> 00:12:47,055 'Don't do it. 161 00:12:47,056 --> 00:12:51,056 'You don't need this in your life right now.' 162 00:12:51,616 --> 00:12:53,855 ..what do you call it then? 163 00:12:53,856 --> 00:12:56,895 And he went, "Blackpool Eiffer." Eiffel...! 164 00:12:56,896 --> 00:13:00,496 I'm not talking about that kind of tower, love! 165 00:13:03,696 --> 00:13:06,335 Simon! What is Simon like...?! 166 00:13:06,336 --> 00:13:08,295 'I really am crap at jokes. 167 00:13:08,296 --> 00:13:10,775 'Rae's always cracking jokes. 168 00:13:10,776 --> 00:13:13,575 'Some stuff I don't really get. I'm not stupid - 169 00:13:13,576 --> 00:13:15,615 'I'm just not programmed like that. 170 00:13:15,616 --> 00:13:17,455 'I need to practise.' 171 00:13:17,456 --> 00:13:20,815 Yeah, but let's be honest, Rae, when was the last time you seen a tower? 172 00:13:20,816 --> 00:13:24,816 Seriously?! 173 00:13:32,576 --> 00:13:34,295 You look down. 174 00:13:34,296 --> 00:13:36,215 Oh, I'm all right. 175 00:13:36,216 --> 00:13:38,455 You know what I do when I'm down? 176 00:13:38,456 --> 00:13:42,455 I pick up the beer mat of happiness. 177 00:13:42,456 --> 00:13:45,615 It used to be the beer mat of joy, but there was... 178 00:13:45,616 --> 00:13:48,535 another beer mat somewhere else called that, and then there was this 179 00:13:48,536 --> 00:13:51,855 bit, big court case about it, and it got really complicated, and then... 180 00:13:51,856 --> 00:13:55,535 Anyway, just for today... 181 00:13:55,536 --> 00:13:57,935 ..I'm going to give you the beer mat of happiness. 182 00:13:57,936 --> 00:14:00,855 Yeah? 183 00:14:00,856 --> 00:14:02,175 I can't. 184 00:14:02,176 --> 00:14:06,176 It's too much for me to handle, it's... too happy. 185 00:14:07,816 --> 00:14:09,455 Here you are. 186 00:14:09,456 --> 00:14:11,255 There you go. 187 00:14:11,256 --> 00:14:13,015 But I want that back, right? 188 00:14:13,016 --> 00:14:15,015 It's just a loan, yeah? 189 00:14:15,016 --> 00:14:19,016 OK. OK? OK! 190 00:14:25,376 --> 00:14:28,855 'I like Finn. He's so different from Steven. 191 00:14:28,856 --> 00:14:31,775 'Finn makes me feel like you do when you put on a new dress. 192 00:14:31,776 --> 00:14:34,535 'You know, when you get that zing feeling... or whatever. 193 00:14:34,536 --> 00:14:37,335 'He makes me feel like a good person.' 194 00:14:37,336 --> 00:14:39,456 Love from X. 195 00:14:55,496 --> 00:14:58,775 Go on! 196 00:14:58,776 --> 00:15:02,776 'Rae so clearly fancies Finn, too - but I liked him first! 197 00:15:03,016 --> 00:15:05,495 'You know? I've liked him since I've known him, 198 00:15:05,496 --> 00:15:06,975 'and I've known him longer. 199 00:15:06,976 --> 00:15:09,055 'Needed to mark the territory. 200 00:15:09,056 --> 00:15:11,975 'I needed to make it clear Finn was mine to go for.' 201 00:15:11,976 --> 00:15:15,976 Oh, what does she think Finn is, a fuckin' lamppost? 202 00:15:17,256 --> 00:15:19,335 Can I tell you something, Rae? 203 00:15:19,336 --> 00:15:22,735 It was me who sent the letter to Finn. 204 00:15:22,736 --> 00:15:26,736 The more time I spend with him, I realise how much I like him. 205 00:15:27,256 --> 00:15:30,495 I really like him. 206 00:15:30,496 --> 00:15:32,295 Do you like anyone at the minute? 207 00:15:32,296 --> 00:15:33,815 Not really. 208 00:15:33,816 --> 00:15:36,415 'I hate it when Rae lies to me. 209 00:15:36,416 --> 00:15:38,375 'We're supposed to be best friends.' 210 00:15:38,376 --> 00:15:40,215 Oh, piss off! 211 00:15:40,216 --> 00:15:42,055 'She can be so self-centred sometimes.' 212 00:15:42,056 --> 00:15:43,695 Oh, piss right off! 213 00:15:43,696 --> 00:15:46,895 'Self-centred? Me? Oh, let's look it up, shall we? 214 00:15:46,896 --> 00:15:50,896 'Ha! in your face, Chloe!' 215 00:15:56,616 --> 00:16:00,616 So, there's this singing event thing at college on Friday. 216 00:16:00,936 --> 00:16:04,255 It's an assessed piece for performing arts. 217 00:16:04,256 --> 00:16:08,256 I'm singing a solo, and... 218 00:16:14,216 --> 00:16:15,775 Well, I've... 219 00:16:15,776 --> 00:16:19,776 I've got some spare tickets if you want to come. 220 00:16:22,056 --> 00:16:23,695 Mum. 221 00:16:23,696 --> 00:16:26,255 What? 222 00:16:26,256 --> 00:16:30,135 Well, do you want to come... to the concert? 223 00:16:30,136 --> 00:16:34,136 No. 224 00:16:38,136 --> 00:16:41,055 I'm sorry I missed the scan. 225 00:16:41,056 --> 00:16:42,935 I went on my own. 226 00:16:42,936 --> 00:16:45,975 I sat in that hospital on my own, 227 00:16:45,976 --> 00:16:47,935 feeling rotten, 228 00:16:47,936 --> 00:16:50,655 not sure what was going on inside me, and you couldn't even 229 00:16:50,656 --> 00:16:53,895 be bothered to show your face, and you're asking me for support! 230 00:16:53,896 --> 00:16:56,335 Mum, I've got to sing in front of the whole college...! 231 00:16:56,336 --> 00:16:59,375 You're not listening, are you? Just thinking about yourself, 232 00:16:59,376 --> 00:17:01,495 just like you always do. 233 00:17:01,496 --> 00:17:03,975 You're only sorry because you feel guilty, 234 00:17:03,976 --> 00:17:06,855 cos you're being self-centred. 235 00:17:06,856 --> 00:17:09,895 I'm not self-centred. I never said you WERE self-centred, 236 00:17:09,896 --> 00:17:11,935 I said you were BEING self-centred. 237 00:17:11,936 --> 00:17:15,936 I'M NOT SELF-CENTRED! 238 00:17:19,456 --> 00:17:22,175 I'm sorry if you're angry about the other night. 239 00:17:22,176 --> 00:17:25,335 But I just wanted to explain that I also have stuff going on, you know, 240 00:17:25,336 --> 00:17:27,695 I had a visitor. That woman? 241 00:17:27,696 --> 00:17:31,335 Yes, that woman. 242 00:17:31,336 --> 00:17:33,935 Let's just say I don't... I don't want to mess things up. 243 00:17:33,936 --> 00:17:37,895 You know that feeling. 244 00:17:37,896 --> 00:17:41,896 I just wanted... to tell you it from my point of view. 245 00:17:42,296 --> 00:17:43,695 You know. 246 00:17:43,696 --> 00:17:45,935 Because I only ever think of myself? 247 00:17:45,936 --> 00:17:48,535 Because I'm self-centred, right? 248 00:17:48,536 --> 00:17:50,535 That's not what I'm saying. 249 00:17:50,536 --> 00:17:52,175 I needed you. 250 00:17:52,176 --> 00:17:55,295 You gave me your number and you said to ring when I wanted. 251 00:17:55,296 --> 00:17:58,175 I didn't say that, I said you could ring if... 252 00:17:58,176 --> 00:18:00,135 y-you were feeling... 253 00:18:00,136 --> 00:18:02,815 you were going to do something stupid, or if you felt like you 254 00:18:02,816 --> 00:18:05,735 were going to hurt yourself again? How do you know that I wasn't? 255 00:18:05,736 --> 00:18:09,735 Were you? 256 00:18:09,736 --> 00:18:11,095 Well... 257 00:18:11,096 --> 00:18:15,096 you're the expert at seeing things from other people's points of view. 258 00:18:17,536 --> 00:18:21,335 I want to, er... 259 00:18:21,336 --> 00:18:24,855 I want to set up good boundaries between us. 260 00:18:24,856 --> 00:18:27,975 Because I care about you, and I need to... 261 00:18:27,976 --> 00:18:31,976 be sure that I'm doing the best job possible for you. 262 00:18:32,096 --> 00:18:34,375 Sometimes that means 263 00:18:34,376 --> 00:18:38,376 putting a bit of space between us. 264 00:18:42,136 --> 00:18:46,136 Me and Liam fooled around the other night. 265 00:18:47,616 --> 00:18:49,615 When... when did... when did that happen? 266 00:18:49,616 --> 00:18:53,616 Couple of nights ago. Mm-hmm. 267 00:18:55,056 --> 00:18:58,655 What was that like? It was horrible. 268 00:18:58,656 --> 00:19:01,015 He told me to keep my top on, because he said 269 00:19:01,016 --> 00:19:03,775 we're not exactly oil paintings. 270 00:19:03,776 --> 00:19:06,975 And how did that make you feel? Good. 271 00:19:06,976 --> 00:19:10,055 Because it confirmed everything that I feel about myself. 272 00:19:10,056 --> 00:19:14,056 I told you, I specifically... said that you were to be careful around Liam. 273 00:19:14,856 --> 00:19:18,095 I mean, it's not good for you and he... it's not good 274 00:19:18,096 --> 00:19:22,096 that any two people involved in therapy to get involved. 275 00:19:22,136 --> 00:19:26,136 Yeah, well... maybe not everyone's as good as boundaries as you are. 276 00:19:35,056 --> 00:19:38,455 'It was the first time I'd ever been nervous about anything. 277 00:19:38,456 --> 00:19:40,415 'Now, if I could kiss him, 278 00:19:40,416 --> 00:19:44,416 'if I could make him see how much I loved him, how much I wanted him... 279 00:19:45,296 --> 00:19:48,376 'Do it. Just go and do it.' 280 00:20:04,736 --> 00:20:06,735 You are an amazing kisser. 281 00:20:06,736 --> 00:20:08,055 Did you like that did you? 282 00:20:08,056 --> 00:20:10,695 Best, ever. 283 00:20:10,696 --> 00:20:11,655 Ever! 284 00:20:11,656 --> 00:20:13,295 'Oh, my God! 285 00:20:13,296 --> 00:20:17,296 'Finn was banging to me. Best night EVER.' 286 00:20:30,496 --> 00:20:34,295 OK, so... so I'm gonna go. 287 00:20:34,296 --> 00:20:37,375 OK. 288 00:20:37,376 --> 00:20:41,376 'It's awkward now, but it won't be after a few days of going out. 289 00:20:41,816 --> 00:20:45,775 'Maybe I should just hold his hand, make things seem less weird.' 290 00:20:45,776 --> 00:20:48,295 Look, Collett. 291 00:20:48,296 --> 00:20:50,695 I'm sorry about last night. 292 00:20:50,696 --> 00:20:53,095 What do you mean? 293 00:20:53,096 --> 00:20:54,575 I was drunk. 294 00:20:54,576 --> 00:20:56,655 So what, everyone was drunk. 295 00:20:56,656 --> 00:20:59,495 Yeah, I know, but... 296 00:20:59,496 --> 00:21:01,975 You should never really kiss... 297 00:21:01,976 --> 00:21:05,976 someone unless you really mean it, right? 298 00:21:06,336 --> 00:21:10,336 Especially not your friends. 299 00:21:10,576 --> 00:21:13,215 I'm sorry. I fucked up. 300 00:21:13,216 --> 00:21:14,895 No, it's all right, it was... 301 00:21:14,896 --> 00:21:17,255 It was only a kiss. 302 00:21:17,256 --> 00:21:20,095 It didn't mean anything. 303 00:21:20,096 --> 00:21:21,375 Suppose. 304 00:21:21,376 --> 00:21:24,215 It's not like we did it. 305 00:21:24,216 --> 00:21:27,295 I felt bad. Don't! 306 00:21:27,296 --> 00:21:29,655 Don't. 307 00:21:29,656 --> 00:21:30,376 Well... 308 00:21:31,416 --> 00:21:33,655 I'm gonna go and get a shower. 309 00:21:33,656 --> 00:21:37,375 And I'm going to get myself a shift load of peppermint tea. 310 00:21:37,376 --> 00:21:41,376 I'll See you later, yeah? Yeah, see you later. 311 00:22:07,576 --> 00:22:09,815 'This is what you're angry about?' 312 00:22:09,816 --> 00:22:13,816 Wouldn't you be angry if your best mate said you didn't deserve someone? 313 00:22:15,736 --> 00:22:17,615 Oi! What are you laughing at? 314 00:22:17,616 --> 00:22:19,215 Chloe... 315 00:22:19,216 --> 00:22:21,935 What? I didn't mean it. 316 00:22:21,936 --> 00:22:24,375 You're welcome to him, I guess. 317 00:22:24,376 --> 00:22:26,855 Am I a bitch, Rae? Everyone can be a bitch. 318 00:22:26,856 --> 00:22:29,815 Yeah, but it's like some more than others, isn't it? 319 00:22:29,816 --> 00:22:33,815 Chloe...? 320 00:22:33,816 --> 00:22:35,295 You're not a bitch. 321 00:22:35,296 --> 00:22:39,296 All right then, I'm not. 322 00:22:44,176 --> 00:22:46,335 'Maybe Rae didn't mean it? 323 00:22:46,336 --> 00:22:48,135 'But what if she was right? 324 00:22:48,136 --> 00:22:51,735 'What if I didn't deserve someone like Finn? 325 00:22:51,736 --> 00:22:54,415 'What if I didn't deserve someone good. 326 00:22:54,416 --> 00:22:58,416 'Rae's a beautiful person, not bitchy and broken like me.' 327 00:23:00,536 --> 00:23:01,998 You're not a bitch. 328 00:23:18,481 --> 00:23:22,481 Anxiety often feels like something that's overwhelming cos it's big 329 00:23:23,161 --> 00:23:26,520 and grey, like a dark cloud. 330 00:23:26,521 --> 00:23:30,320 So, it's really important when you're feeling that way that you try 331 00:23:30,321 --> 00:23:34,321 and narrow down exactly what it is that you're worried about. 332 00:23:35,841 --> 00:23:38,560 And that way... 333 00:23:38,561 --> 00:23:42,561 Sorry. 334 00:23:43,121 --> 00:23:47,121 So, em... 335 00:23:48,041 --> 00:23:50,920 So, has anyone...? 336 00:23:50,921 --> 00:23:54,921 Anyone got anything that they're worried about at the moment? 337 00:23:55,521 --> 00:23:58,440 I'm going home next week. 338 00:23:58,441 --> 00:23:59,760 Thanks. 339 00:23:59,761 --> 00:24:02,080 Thanks a lot. 340 00:24:02,081 --> 00:24:06,081 And I'm worried about being too excited. 341 00:24:06,681 --> 00:24:10,681 And having too much fun. 342 00:24:11,161 --> 00:24:15,161 Great, great. Em, anyone else? 343 00:24:17,641 --> 00:24:21,641 I've got a concert at college. 344 00:24:21,681 --> 00:24:25,120 I don't know if I can do it or not. 345 00:24:25,121 --> 00:24:29,121 OK, great. Has anyone got any advice for Rae? 346 00:24:30,881 --> 00:24:32,881 You could imagine the audience naked. 347 00:24:34,281 --> 00:24:36,160 All right, Liam, that's great, thank you. 348 00:24:36,161 --> 00:24:39,480 Like imagine all their bits flapping around. 349 00:24:39,481 --> 00:24:41,880 You know, flesh... Look, Liam, anyone else? 350 00:24:41,881 --> 00:24:44,240 Anybody? ..people say it helps but on second thoughts, 351 00:24:44,241 --> 00:24:47,040 do you really want to imagine all the teachers with their kits off? 352 00:24:47,041 --> 00:24:49,480 All right, Liam, we've got that, I think. And I mean... 353 00:24:49,481 --> 00:24:52,200 Liam! ..because your anxiety may disappear cos you might end up 354 00:24:52,201 --> 00:24:53,360 being sick everywhere. 355 00:24:53,361 --> 00:24:57,361 Will you shut your mouth, please?! 356 00:25:00,601 --> 00:25:04,040 Do you have to be so disruptive?! Do you?! 357 00:25:04,041 --> 00:25:08,041 People come here to try to learn to cope and all you do is undermine it! 358 00:25:24,521 --> 00:25:26,880 Stop. Fuck him and fuck this place! 359 00:25:26,881 --> 00:25:29,640 Nobody talks to me like that, it's bullshit! 360 00:25:29,641 --> 00:25:32,120 I'm not coming here any more, I'm done with therapy. 361 00:25:32,121 --> 00:25:34,040 Liam, you don't mean that. 362 00:25:34,041 --> 00:25:36,880 Yeah, I do. It doesn't work. 363 00:25:36,881 --> 00:25:40,881 Behaviour is habitual, it's like a path you walk over and over again. 364 00:25:42,201 --> 00:25:46,201 A divot, a furrow, you follow that path and you don't think about it. 365 00:25:46,321 --> 00:25:48,840 Yep, I know what habitual means, Liam. 366 00:25:48,841 --> 00:25:52,160 In therapy, we learn why our paths in our heads are formed 367 00:25:52,161 --> 00:25:55,400 the way they are, why we're "fucked up" 368 00:25:55,401 --> 00:25:58,080 and whenever we go out into the real world, 369 00:25:58,081 --> 00:26:01,000 it's a problem because we still walk down the same path 370 00:26:01,001 --> 00:26:05,001 and we still make the same choices because people can't change. 371 00:26:08,201 --> 00:26:09,600 People can change. 372 00:26:09,601 --> 00:26:11,840 Yeah? 373 00:26:11,841 --> 00:26:15,560 That's what Kester wants you to think. 374 00:26:15,561 --> 00:26:19,561 Because me and you, Rae, we are always going to be fuck-ups. 375 00:26:22,601 --> 00:26:24,280 We are. 376 00:26:24,281 --> 00:26:27,840 But there's nothing wrong with that. 377 00:26:27,841 --> 00:26:31,680 And maybe... 378 00:26:31,681 --> 00:26:35,681 ..maybe we could be fuck-ups together. 379 00:26:36,081 --> 00:26:40,081 What do you mean? I know that I said I didn't want to go out with you. 380 00:26:41,041 --> 00:26:42,640 The more time I spend with you, 381 00:26:42,641 --> 00:26:46,641 the more I realise that we were made for each other. 382 00:26:46,961 --> 00:26:48,800 Just think about it. 383 00:26:48,801 --> 00:26:52,801 Yeah? 384 00:27:11,001 --> 00:27:15,001 'Imagine them naked. Naked, naked.' 385 00:27:18,281 --> 00:27:22,281 'Nearly. Come on, imagine them naked. 386 00:27:22,721 --> 00:27:26,721 'Imagine their bits just flapping around. Imagine the humanity of it.' 387 00:27:50,121 --> 00:27:54,121 Wake up, Rae. 388 00:27:58,961 --> 00:28:00,560 'Just leave it. 389 00:28:00,561 --> 00:28:03,680 'It's going to mess you up and it's going to make you anxious 390 00:28:03,681 --> 00:28:07,681 'and you don't need that in your life at the moment.' 391 00:28:09,601 --> 00:28:13,601 'Dear Diary, it's a good thing that Finn and Rae are so happy together. 392 00:28:14,921 --> 00:28:18,921 'I should be happy for them, right? That means I have to move on.' 393 00:28:21,521 --> 00:28:24,840 World War II didn't even start when Hitler invaded Poland. 394 00:28:24,841 --> 00:28:28,840 It started when Japan invaded China. Isn't that crazy? 395 00:28:28,841 --> 00:28:32,841 Yeah, I don't know. I was crap at history, really. 396 00:28:33,521 --> 00:28:37,521 I'm crap at anything like that. You're not crap at anything. 397 00:28:38,161 --> 00:28:40,880 Garvey said, "If you have no confidence in self, 398 00:28:40,881 --> 00:28:44,680 "you're twice defeated in life." Good old Garvey. 399 00:28:44,681 --> 00:28:48,681 Yeah. 400 00:28:55,201 --> 00:28:58,160 I, eh... 401 00:28:58,161 --> 00:29:02,161 Good night, Chlo. 402 00:29:31,241 --> 00:29:33,240 Izzy, I don't believe it. 403 00:29:33,241 --> 00:29:36,200 That's the second girl I've seen wearing this outfit. 404 00:29:36,201 --> 00:29:39,280 Yeah, well, maybe hers is more of like a pinky-blue whereas yours 405 00:29:39,281 --> 00:29:41,360 is more like... purple-y. 406 00:29:41,361 --> 00:29:43,560 Izzy, it's the exact same colour. 407 00:29:43,561 --> 00:29:47,561 Right, my first day at college is ruined. It couldn't get any worse. 408 00:29:55,001 --> 00:29:57,720 'I had to find a way to stand out. 409 00:29:57,721 --> 00:30:01,720 'Boys won't realise how cool you are if they don't know you exist. 410 00:30:01,721 --> 00:30:05,721 'But how do you get them to notice you?' 411 00:30:09,401 --> 00:30:10,680 Are you sure? 412 00:30:10,681 --> 00:30:14,681 Yeah, I've not got much of an appetite. 413 00:30:43,321 --> 00:30:47,321 Here you go. Cheers. It's all right. Thanks for coming, Rae, I just... 414 00:30:48,441 --> 00:30:52,441 Well, I just wanted to talk to you about something. God, my life sucks. 415 00:30:54,001 --> 00:30:56,520 I don't even know why I call it a life. 416 00:30:56,521 --> 00:31:00,320 Calling it a life is like a breach of the Trade Descriptions Act. 417 00:31:00,321 --> 00:31:03,400 Well, I'm thinking of doing something a bit, em... well, 418 00:31:03,401 --> 00:31:07,401 a bit crazy. And I wanted to talk to you about it... So what? 419 00:31:07,641 --> 00:31:11,641 I missed a few days of college. That's not a big deal, is it? 420 00:31:12,401 --> 00:31:16,401 The way my mum reacted, you'd think I'd been caught selling crack. 421 00:31:16,801 --> 00:31:20,720 God, she is a pain in the arse. 422 00:31:20,721 --> 00:31:24,721 Oh! I'm sorry, Chloe. Sorry, what were you saying? 423 00:31:25,721 --> 00:31:29,721 Nothing. Nothing. 424 00:31:31,761 --> 00:31:35,761 'How many moments did I miss like that?' 425 00:31:35,881 --> 00:31:39,881 'How many times had I let Chloe down when she needed some support? 426 00:31:40,481 --> 00:31:44,481 'Needed a friend?' 427 00:31:47,761 --> 00:31:50,520 Oh, my God, Rae. Hiya. 428 00:31:50,521 --> 00:31:53,720 What are you doing here? 429 00:31:53,721 --> 00:31:56,640 Are you going somewhere? Yeah, we're off to Portugal. 430 00:31:56,641 --> 00:31:59,080 We saw a deal last night on teletext and we thought, 431 00:31:59,081 --> 00:32:01,080 "Bollocks to it, let's go!" 432 00:32:01,081 --> 00:32:04,000 We? Eh, yeah, I'm sorry, I never introduced you. 433 00:32:04,001 --> 00:32:06,640 This is Jude, my partner. Hello. 434 00:32:06,641 --> 00:32:10,000 Em, well, what about tea tomorrow night? 435 00:32:10,001 --> 00:32:12,600 I thought I was supposed to come round on Saturdays. 436 00:32:12,601 --> 00:32:14,240 Oh, God, I'm sorry. 437 00:32:14,241 --> 00:32:18,241 What's going on? Oh, don't worry, darling, you get in the cab. 438 00:32:19,601 --> 00:32:21,440 Why don't we meet up when I get back? 439 00:32:21,441 --> 00:32:23,880 Huh? Can't wait. 440 00:32:23,881 --> 00:32:27,881 I mean it. OK? 441 00:32:36,801 --> 00:32:40,560 'Maybe I didn't deserve anyone's support. 442 00:32:40,561 --> 00:32:44,561 'Maybe being a letdown ran in the family.' 443 00:33:06,441 --> 00:33:10,161 'And it wasn't just that I hadn't been there for her.' 444 00:33:13,201 --> 00:33:15,960 I'm just worried about her. 445 00:33:15,961 --> 00:33:19,760 I know. Why didn't she set the alarm off? 446 00:33:19,761 --> 00:33:23,560 I'm scared if she gets sick again, Archie, we can't let that happen. 447 00:33:23,561 --> 00:33:27,561 I won't let that happen. 448 00:33:27,921 --> 00:33:31,921 'It was that she had been there for me.' 449 00:33:34,561 --> 00:33:38,561 'Whenever I'd been at my lowest ebb, she'd been there for me.' 450 00:33:49,881 --> 00:33:53,881 'And it wasn't just reading a diary that made me realise it. I knew it. 451 00:33:55,361 --> 00:33:59,361 'Because now, when I really needed her, she was gone.' 452 00:34:04,921 --> 00:34:08,280 'Dear Diary, how long does Finn have to be single before I can 453 00:34:08,281 --> 00:34:10,680 'ask him out?' Finn. 454 00:34:10,681 --> 00:34:13,800 All right. Hi. You OK? Yeah. 455 00:34:13,801 --> 00:34:17,480 Look, I've got to run but I'll see you later at the pub maybe, yeah? 456 00:34:17,481 --> 00:34:19,880 Yeah. See you in a bit. Bye. 457 00:34:19,881 --> 00:34:23,000 'Maybe I should accept that guys like Finn don't go out with 458 00:34:23,001 --> 00:34:24,760 'girls like me. 459 00:34:24,761 --> 00:34:28,000 'They want someone interesting, someone funny and clever. 460 00:34:28,001 --> 00:34:29,920 'I'm not good at any of that.' 461 00:34:29,921 --> 00:34:33,040 Got a light? 462 00:34:33,041 --> 00:34:35,720 I don't smoke. 463 00:34:35,721 --> 00:34:39,000 Want a beer? What makes you think I drink? 464 00:34:39,001 --> 00:34:43,001 You don't smoke, you don't drink. What do you do? 465 00:34:47,801 --> 00:34:49,883 'I am good at some things, though.' 466 00:34:50,855 --> 00:34:54,855 I don't want to kiss you. Yeah, but my kiss is not on the mouth. You wish! 467 00:35:04,510 --> 00:35:07,429 Oi, just a kiss! I know. 468 00:35:07,430 --> 00:35:11,350 All right, let's do this! 469 00:35:18,022 --> 00:35:21,421 The concert was in a few hours and I had to rehearse, 470 00:35:21,422 --> 00:35:25,422 I had to concentrate! 471 00:35:29,102 --> 00:35:32,621 There were only a few pages left to bring us to the present day. 472 00:35:32,622 --> 00:35:35,661 It was like moving slowly past a crumpled heap 473 00:35:35,662 --> 00:35:38,781 on the motorway... I couldn't look away. 474 00:35:38,782 --> 00:35:42,341 I know you're not the type of girl who likes to stop at a kiss. 475 00:35:42,342 --> 00:35:43,821 Maybe not, 476 00:35:43,822 --> 00:35:46,261 I had you down as the type of man who's a bit of a bottler. 477 00:35:46,262 --> 00:35:47,661 What do you mean? 478 00:35:47,662 --> 00:35:51,662 All mouth, no trousers. 479 00:35:53,102 --> 00:35:57,102 I'm not a fucking bottler! Well, prove it. 480 00:36:01,942 --> 00:36:05,942 How much could I have helped her if only I'd been a better friend? 481 00:36:06,062 --> 00:36:07,661 How much would be different? 482 00:36:07,662 --> 00:36:09,101 Come on, Chloe, we're going. 483 00:36:09,102 --> 00:36:11,701 Going where? I'm not going anywhere. 484 00:36:11,702 --> 00:36:14,581 Saul just tried it on with me in the toilet... it was horrible! 485 00:36:14,582 --> 00:36:16,461 I could barely get away, we're going home. 486 00:36:16,462 --> 00:36:20,061 Well, I'm fine, Rae, if you want to go, that's fine. 487 00:36:20,062 --> 00:36:24,062 Whatever, Chlo. 488 00:36:26,822 --> 00:36:30,541 Your friend shouldn't look a gift horse in the mouth! 489 00:36:30,542 --> 00:36:32,381 What do you mean? 490 00:36:32,382 --> 00:36:34,821 Doubt she's got loads of people wanting to fuck her, 491 00:36:34,822 --> 00:36:38,141 she should take whatever comes along. 492 00:36:38,142 --> 00:36:42,142 Get me a slice of pizza. 493 00:37:04,622 --> 00:37:08,021 Rae isn't around much at the moment because she's got Liam. 494 00:37:08,022 --> 00:37:10,941 So, there's no-one I can really talk to. 495 00:37:10,942 --> 00:37:14,621 Well, there is one person I can go to. 496 00:37:14,622 --> 00:37:16,941 One person who makes me feel safe 497 00:37:16,942 --> 00:37:18,501 and makes me feel good. 498 00:37:18,502 --> 00:37:21,341 Oi, what's up, stud? 499 00:37:21,342 --> 00:37:22,941 Not much. 500 00:37:22,942 --> 00:37:26,781 I broke up with Olivia. 501 00:37:26,782 --> 00:37:29,101 Well, are you all right? 502 00:37:29,102 --> 00:37:30,901 Yeah. 503 00:37:30,902 --> 00:37:34,902 Oh, my God! He's single again. 504 00:37:37,662 --> 00:37:39,701 You have to tell him how you feel. 505 00:37:39,702 --> 00:37:43,702 Look what happened last time... tell him... tell him. 506 00:37:44,342 --> 00:37:45,761 Oh, God! 507 00:37:45,805 --> 00:37:49,805 Chloe, can I ask you something? Yeah. 508 00:37:51,605 --> 00:37:54,564 How do you get over someone? 509 00:37:54,565 --> 00:37:58,565 How do you move on? Well, what do you mean? 510 00:38:00,005 --> 00:38:04,005 I broke up with her because... 511 00:38:04,525 --> 00:38:08,525 ..I can't stop thinking about Rae. 512 00:38:10,045 --> 00:38:12,684 Erm... 513 00:38:12,685 --> 00:38:16,685 I don't know how you get over someone. 514 00:38:17,845 --> 00:38:20,924 I'm crap at advice. 515 00:38:20,925 --> 00:38:24,925 I'm crap at anything like that, really. 516 00:38:25,565 --> 00:38:29,565 Maybe you never do. 517 00:38:34,725 --> 00:38:38,725 Come on, let's go to the fucking pub! 518 00:38:40,445 --> 00:38:44,445 Take me chips with me. 519 00:38:51,805 --> 00:38:55,805 Oh, shit! 520 00:38:57,085 --> 00:39:00,764 Ian, have you seen my purse? 521 00:39:00,765 --> 00:39:02,364 Ian, have you seen my purse? 522 00:39:02,365 --> 00:39:05,164 No. Well, I need it because I'm going now. Shut the fuck up, Chloe. 523 00:39:05,165 --> 00:39:06,804 Ian, don't talk to me like that! 524 00:39:06,891 --> 00:39:09,450 Have you saw it? I said, shut the fuck up! 525 00:39:09,451 --> 00:39:12,850 And it's seen, stupid slag. 526 00:39:12,851 --> 00:39:16,250 Come on! I'm paused here, who the fuck paused it? 527 00:39:16,251 --> 00:39:17,490 Do you know what, Ian? 528 00:39:17,491 --> 00:39:20,130 Go and find someone else to be horrible to because I'm leaving. 529 00:39:20,131 --> 00:39:22,650 You'll be back. No, I won't! 530 00:39:22,651 --> 00:39:25,330 Right, you don't deserve me 531 00:39:25,331 --> 00:39:29,090 and I deserve better. 532 00:39:29,091 --> 00:39:32,050 You will be back because if I have to come and find you, 533 00:39:32,051 --> 00:39:36,051 I'll be very annoyed. 534 00:39:37,731 --> 00:39:39,050 She's a rich girl 535 00:39:39,051 --> 00:39:40,410 Ooh-ah, ooh-ah 536 00:39:40,411 --> 00:39:41,850 Don't try to hide it 537 00:39:41,851 --> 00:39:43,010 Ooh-ah, ooh-ah 538 00:39:43,011 --> 00:39:45,010 Diamonds on the soles of her shoes... 539 00:39:45,011 --> 00:39:46,370 Great! 540 00:39:46,371 --> 00:39:47,610 He's a poor boy 541 00:39:47,611 --> 00:39:48,770 Ooh-ah, ooh-ah 542 00:39:48,771 --> 00:39:51,730 Empty as a pocket, empty as a pocket 543 00:39:51,731 --> 00:39:54,290 With nothing to lose, sing to-na-na 544 00:39:54,291 --> 00:39:55,450 To-na-na 545 00:39:55,451 --> 00:39:57,010 To-na-na-na-na 546 00:39:57,011 --> 00:40:00,970 She's diamonds on the soles of her shoes 547 00:40:00,971 --> 00:40:02,170 To-na-na 548 00:40:02,171 --> 00:40:03,210 To-na-na 549 00:40:03,211 --> 00:40:04,610 To-na-na-na-na 550 00:40:04,611 --> 00:40:08,250 She's got diamonds on the soles of her shoes. 551 00:40:08,251 --> 00:40:10,050 Well done! Are you happy? 552 00:40:10,051 --> 00:40:11,810 Yeah. Yeah. Greg? 553 00:40:11,811 --> 00:40:13,690 Happy. Izz? Yeah. 554 00:40:13,691 --> 00:40:16,890 Do you like the arrangement? I think I've got it? Yeah, what is it then? 555 00:40:16,891 --> 00:40:18,970 To-na-na, to-na-na-na-na... 556 00:40:18,971 --> 00:40:20,250 Sorry I'm late. 557 00:40:20,251 --> 00:40:22,050 Where have you been? 558 00:40:22,051 --> 00:40:26,051 Oh... just... just had a bug. 559 00:40:29,211 --> 00:40:32,930 What's up? Nothing. What's the matter with you? 560 00:40:32,931 --> 00:40:35,290 What's the matter with me? 561 00:40:35,291 --> 00:40:37,010 You let me down at the party. 562 00:40:37,011 --> 00:40:38,210 Look, Rae... 563 00:40:38,211 --> 00:40:42,211 You just left me stranded! I was in trouble and you did nothing! 564 00:40:42,371 --> 00:40:45,290 Rae, I'm really sorry, I didn't realise, I was drunk. 565 00:40:45,291 --> 00:40:48,290 Can we please meet up and talk later cos there's something I'm... 566 00:40:48,291 --> 00:40:51,370 You're supposed to be my best mate, Chloe, and you don't give a shit! 567 00:40:51,371 --> 00:40:53,530 Will you just listen to what I'm trying to say! 568 00:40:53,531 --> 00:40:55,810 I'm not your mum! 569 00:40:55,811 --> 00:40:59,811 I can't look after you all the time. 570 00:41:01,571 --> 00:41:03,530 Stay away from me. 571 00:41:03,531 --> 00:41:06,170 Rae, please! 572 00:41:06,171 --> 00:41:08,570 No, no... 573 00:41:08,571 --> 00:41:11,170 No, no, no. 574 00:41:11,171 --> 00:41:13,730 ..no, no, no! 575 00:41:13,731 --> 00:41:16,050 The concert was in an hour 576 00:41:16,051 --> 00:41:20,051 but my heart was too broken to feel afraid any more. 577 00:41:20,771 --> 00:41:22,490 I was too far gone. 578 00:41:22,491 --> 00:41:26,491 No cuts or burns or pinches on my body had ever gone this deep. 579 00:41:31,131 --> 00:41:35,131 Because of me, because of my actions, my selfishness, 580 00:41:36,331 --> 00:41:38,531 Chloe was gone! 581 00:41:49,171 --> 00:41:50,850 Everyone, this is Rae. 582 00:41:50,851 --> 00:41:52,730 She's amazing, she's funny. 583 00:41:52,731 --> 00:41:54,730 So, are we going to get a chance to catch up? 584 00:41:54,731 --> 00:41:56,290 Have you not been in France? 585 00:41:56,291 --> 00:41:57,810 I don't know where she's been. 586 00:41:57,811 --> 00:41:59,010 I don't break promises. 587 00:41:59,011 --> 00:42:00,730 I do know she's had a breakdown though. 588 00:42:00,731 --> 00:42:01,810 I did something stupid. 589 00:42:01,811 --> 00:42:04,330 Stay away from them both, the whole family, 590 00:42:04,331 --> 00:42:05,850 they're programmed differently. 591 00:42:05,851 --> 00:42:07,170 I'm not leaving you on our own. 592 00:42:07,171 --> 00:42:10,210 Rae so clearly fancies Finn too but I liked him first! 593 00:42:10,211 --> 00:42:12,050 We just really need to talk, Rae. 594 00:42:12,051 --> 00:42:13,770 It was only a kiss. 595 00:42:13,771 --> 00:42:15,530 What if I didn't deserve someone good. 596 00:42:15,531 --> 00:42:17,210 Rae's a beautiful person. 597 00:42:17,211 --> 00:42:18,690 I'm not a fucking bottler. 598 00:42:18,691 --> 00:42:20,250 I'm not bitching, I'm broken. 599 00:42:20,251 --> 00:42:23,170 I'm scared if she gets sick again, I can't let that happen. 600 00:42:23,171 --> 00:42:26,170 You're supposed to be my best mate, Chloe, and you don't give a shit! 601 00:42:26,171 --> 00:42:28,450 You don't care about anyone but yourself! 602 00:42:28,451 --> 00:42:32,451 I'm not your mum! 603 00:42:41,731 --> 00:42:45,731 It's been seven hours and 15 days 604 00:42:48,011 --> 00:42:51,850 Since you took your love away 605 00:42:51,851 --> 00:42:55,851 Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah 606 00:42:56,491 --> 00:43:00,491 I go out every night and sleep all day 607 00:43:04,011 --> 00:43:07,890 Since you took your love away 608 00:43:07,891 --> 00:43:11,891 Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah 609 00:43:14,531 --> 00:43:18,531 I went to the doctor and guess what he told me? 610 00:43:26,171 --> 00:43:30,171 I could put my arms around every boy I see... 611 00:44:08,491 --> 00:44:12,491 Nine months in therapy. Nine months, going back to the same point. 612 00:44:13,091 --> 00:44:17,091 Nine months of, "You need to like yourself more, Rae." 613 00:44:17,891 --> 00:44:21,210 Well, the truth is, now I've seen things the way they are. 614 00:44:21,211 --> 00:44:25,130 I've never liked myself any less than I do right now. 615 00:44:25,131 --> 00:44:26,650 Because, guess what? 616 00:44:26,651 --> 00:44:29,530 I am a bitch! 617 00:44:29,531 --> 00:44:33,250 There was only one last page to read. 618 00:44:33,251 --> 00:44:36,730 But I already knew exactly how this story ended. 619 00:44:36,731 --> 00:44:39,130 I left a message for Chloe's parents, 620 00:44:39,131 --> 00:44:41,650 telling them where I thought she might have gone, 621 00:44:41,651 --> 00:44:45,411 where I knew she was. 622 00:44:50,771 --> 00:44:54,771 Dear diary, I'm crap at most things 623 00:44:55,011 --> 00:44:59,011 but one thing I'm not crap at... men. 624 00:45:00,291 --> 00:45:04,291 I understand their appetites. 625 00:45:05,011 --> 00:45:07,131 I know what they need feeding. 626 00:45:22,891 --> 00:45:26,730 Like Liam says, you can't change your behaviour. 627 00:45:26,731 --> 00:45:30,050 We walk the same old paths, the same old divots, 628 00:45:30,051 --> 00:45:33,770 the same old furrows and my paths are concreted over, 629 00:45:33,771 --> 00:45:37,771 my furrows are as deep as Grand Canyon's and a girl like me, 630 00:45:38,691 --> 00:45:42,330 well, she's got to take whatever she can get! 631 00:45:42,331 --> 00:45:46,331 What can I say... I'm surprised and delighted to see you this evening. 632 00:45:48,731 --> 00:45:51,571 I just think... 633 00:46:07,891 --> 00:46:10,850 You sure you want to do this? 634 00:46:10,851 --> 00:46:14,851 Don't talk. 635 00:46:17,651 --> 00:46:20,330 What are you doing? 636 00:46:20,331 --> 00:46:22,930 I'm turning the light off. 637 00:46:22,931 --> 00:46:26,931 We're not exactly oil paintings, are we? 638 00:46:29,958 --> 00:47:10,470 639 00:47:10,520 --> 00:47:15,070 Repair and Synchronization by Easy Subtitles Synchronizer 1.0.0.0